You Miss Them, But You Dont Need Them

Denys Argyriou

Sure, you spend the majority of your day thinking about them. You expend hours at work, thinking about their lips and their hands and their face. You spend your lunch violate missing the way they wrapped their arms around you even when you weren’t cold. And then you expend your nights flinging and turning, wishing so desperately that they were beside you. That they were with you now.

You miss them. You urgently want them back. But you do not need them. I know you think you do, but you don’t.

You assure, you don’t need their smile or laugh or body. You don’t need his hands or her eyes. You don’t need their hearts to stimulate you happy. You simply need yours.

There are seven billion people in this world. You will find another him. You will find another her. And honestly, and truthfully, you will find person better than this person. One day you’ll find someone who won’t close the door on your heart .

But for now, you have you and that’s a pretty magical thing to have. Your heart still beats. Your eyelashes still flutter. Your lungs still fill with air. Your veins and bones still live on. Without him. And without her.

You don’t need them to survive. And I know right now it feels like you could die without them. I know right now, it feels like you could just drop dead. And perhaps you want to. But you need to continue on. You need to keep opposing. And living.

You need to learn that you can feel just as alive on your own. You need to learn that you can feel just as beautiful, if not more so, without them.

You don’t need their eyes for you to see how wonderful you are. You don’t need their encouragement to be reminded of all the reasons you are smart and clever. You don’t need their heart to beat next to yours, for you to know how lovable you are.

Sure, right now you’re suffering. And that’s not something to brush off. That’s not something to take lightly. But every blizzard has to end. And eventually, your pain will mitigate. That doesn’t mean you’ll forget. That doesn’t mean you’ll stop loving them or caring for them. It just means that your heart will hurt less and less, until you feel whole again. Whole with simply you .

But until that happens, keep on smiling on your own. Keep crying and can breathe. Maintain falling and flying. Keep on doing what stimulates you happy. And keep having patience.

One day, you’ll know why. Because one day, you won’t need them. Or miss them. Or think about them. And then you’ll have everything you could want. You’ll have your happiness and your liberty.

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Lawsuit filed by 22 state attorneys general seeks to block net neutrality repeal

A lawsuit filed today by the lawyers general of 22 nations seeks to block the Federal Communications Commission’s recent controversial referendum to repeal Obama era Net Neutrality regulations.

The filing is led by New York State Attorney General Schneiderman, who called rollback a potential “disaster for New York consumers and businesses, and for everyone who cares about a free and open internet.”

The letter, which was filed in the United States District Court of Appeals in Washington, is cosigned by AGs from California, Connecticut, Delaware, Hawaii, Illinois, Iowa, Kentucky, Maine, Maryland, Massachusetts, Minnesota, Mississippi, New Mexico, North Carolina, Oregon, Pennsylvania, Rhode Island, Vermont, Virginia, Washington and Washington DC

“An open internet- and the free exchange of ideas it allows- is critical to our democratic process, ” Schneiderman added in an accompanying statement. “The repeal of net neutrality would turn internet service providers into gatekeepers- allowing them to set earnings over customers while controlling what we ensure, what we do, and what we say online.”

This isn’t the first major joint effort to shoot down the ruling — the suit comes as 49 Democratic Senators and one Republican vocalized their disapproval for the dubiously named Restoring Internet Freedom ruling. D.C.-based non-profit public interest group Public knowledge also issued a protective petition today, asking the D.C. Court of appeals to review the rollback.

Immediately following the FCC’s vote, advocacy group Free Press also announced plans to sue the FCC, citing, “Chairman Pai’s deeply flawed legal reasoning on several points.”

Update : You can add Mozilla to the listing of organizations filing a petition in federal court the coming week. As the Firefox maker notes in its post, “the FCC decision made it clear that suits should be filed 10 days after it is published in the Federal Register, which has not yet resulted. However, federal statute is more ambiguous. Due to the importance of this issue, even though we believe the filing date should be later, we filed in the event national courts determines the appropriate date is today.”

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Terrorist screening lawsuit by CAIR backs 5 Muslim Americans

A civil rights group has filed national courts challenge to the federal government’s Terrorist Screening Database, alleging it stigmatizes its targets without due process.

The Council on American-Islamic Relations filed the lawsuit Wednesday in federal tribunal in Dallas on behalf of five Muslim American citizens. In a statement, different groups says the five face consequences because they’re on the watch list, “including the inability to fly on airliners, intrusive screenings at airports, and the denial of applications for credit card and bank loans.”

CAIR’s senior litigation attorney, Gadeir( gah-DAYR’) Abbas says the database is “nothing more than a list of innocent Muslim citizens who have not been arrested, charged or convicted of a crime.”

The U.S. Department of Justice didn’t immediately respond to a message trying comment.

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Colorado woman killed father, encased him in concrete at home, police say

The daughter of a human whose body was procured encased in concrete inside a Denver home was charged with first-degree assassination Tuesday, officers said.

Dayna Jennings, 44, was arrested last Wednesday in the death of her father, 69 -year-old William Mussack, after his remains were found inside a crawl space encased in concrete, the 17 th Judicial District Attorney’s Office said.

In court documents obtained by FOX3 1, Jennings admitted to police she poured the concrete.

The Federal Heights Police Department said Jennings and Mussack shared a house, and neighbors told authorities Jennings’ boyfriend also lived at the home.

While a cause of death has not been listed, family members told police they believe the 69 -year-old was being drugged. In December, Mussack was found unconscious after taking a bite of a hamburger Jennings dedicated to him.


William Mussack’s body was found encased in concrete in a home in a Denver suburb. ( FOX3 1 Denver)

Family and friends had been searching for Mussack for two weeks, and notified authorities to the disappearance in late December.

When police originally spoke to Jennings, she told policemen her father no longer lived at the home and she had not find him in weeks, the arrest affidavit said. A police officer who searched the home on Dec. 29 noticed the reek of something that was rotting and sewage, according to police.

Mussack’s son Brian, who lives in California, said Jennings sent him a text message saying their dad was being abusive to her, but he and other family members said that would have been out of character for him, The Denver Post reported.

Police also find unusual activity on Mussack’s bank account in December, when his named was signed on a check made out to Jennings for $500 with a a signature that did not match prior ones. There were also several purchases induced on Amazon during that time period, according to police.

When police procured a search warrant of the home on Jan. 10 and told Jennings they were breaking up the concrete in the crawlspace of the home, she requested a lawyer and stopped talking to cops, according to the arrest affidavit.

Police said Jennings’ ex-husband told researchers she was “impulsive and irrational at times” and also had patters of “intense and unstable relationship with household, friends and loved ones.”

Jennings was charged with first-degree murder after deliberation and tampering with a deceased human body. She is scheduled to appear at a preliminary hearing on Feb. 15 in Adams County District Court.

Travis Fedschun is a reporter for Follow him on Twitter @travfed

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Googles Project Fi now caps data bills at $60

Google’s Project Fi cell service never played the “unlimited data” game that most carriers in the U.S. like to play( and which is never truly unlimited ). Instead, Google simply offered data at $10/ GB/ month and would give you a rebate for any data you paid for but didn’t use. Now, however, it’s taking its own stab at what is essentially an unlimited data plan. With its new’ bill protection’ feature, Project Fi users who use more than 6 GB of data in any dedicated month will never pay more than $60 for that( plus the standard $20 for unlimited talk and text ).

Update : A Google spokesperson told us that the company also changed how the data billing for Fi works now. You now pay for the data “youre using” at the end of the month, so there’s no need for rebates anymore. We have amended this post to reflect that .

So now, you will simply pay for the data you use, but once you hit 6 GB of data, your overall costs for the month won’t go beyond that $60 limit.

Because no unlimited plan is ever unlimited, Google, too, will slow your data velocities once you make 15 GB of data. The company says only 1 percent of current Fi users actually use that much, but then that number may go up once you don’t have to pay $150 for using that much data. If you go over 15 GB, you can always opt to pay $10/ GB to get faster speeds again( or, in Google’s word, “ opt out of slower speeds” ).

The bill protection feature includes international data( which is always included) and also applies to data-only plans for laptops, tablets and cars.

If you are on a group plan, the bill protection kickings in at different levels, depending on how many people are on your plan.

Google never positioned Fi as the cheapest carrier and indeed, you’ll find better “unlimited” plans with other carriers. Instead, Google always argued that Fi was a fairer plan that let you pay for what you actually use( though, yeah, you’re paying for unlimited calls and you probably don’t make a lot of those …). With the ability to use three networks( T-Mobile, Sprint and U.S. Cellular ), Google also argues that its networks gives you access to more cell towers and 4G LTE than its competitors.

To utilize Project Fi, you’ll require a phone that supports switching between the various networks. Currently, supported telephones include Google’s own Pixel 2 and Pixel lines, as well as the Android One Moto X4( as well as some of the more recent Nexus telephones ).

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Years Later, I Am Still Struggling With Your Death

Instagram/ Jesse Herzog

Everyone maintains saying that heals all wounds, that I will feel better as long as I dedicate it some — but the longer I think about the phrase, the less I believe it.

Years have gone by and I’m struggling to deal with your death. There are still moments where I can’t believe you’re gone. I can’t wrap my mind around it. It feels like you’re only away on vacation, like you’re going to walk through the door again one day.

Whenever the anniversary of your death pass, the math always shocks me. I can’t believe how many years have gone by already. I can’t believe that I managed to survive a day without you, let alone two or three or ten years. It feels like you’ve been gone for a while, but at the same hour, it feels like you were here only yesterday.

It’s crazy to guess how different things were back when you were alive. I was a different person with different friends and different dreams. Different bands were popular. Different clothes were worn. So many things have changed — in the world and in my personal life.

When you first left this ground, my friends would dance around your name. They would avoid mentioning you in conversation because they were worried about my reaction. They didn’t want to upset me.

But now that some time has passed, they ask more questions about you. They mention you more. They actually say your name aloud. They think that it won’t hurt me to talk about you anymore since they are assume I am over your death, that I have wept all of the tears I can cry.

But sometimes, it’s hard to talk about you. It’s hard to think about the working day you died. It’s hard to think about the days when you were still here. Largely, it’s hard to think about how much of my life you have missed out on already and how much more you aren’t going to see.

Everyone acts like time will heal my pain, but the truth is, it gets harder to deal with your demise during every milestone. When I get married, all I will think about is that you aren’t there to dance with me. When I have children, all I will think about it how much you would have spoiled them. When I move into a new home or get a new job, all I will think about is how you would have reacted to the good news.

Even during little moments, when I have a funny story about a horrible date I went on or questions about how to fill out paperwork, all I think about is how I wish I could call you and find what you had to say. Missing you can come out of the blue, but it’s never truly unexpected.

It doesn’t matter how many years have passed, because I am always going to miss you with the same intensity. I am always going to detest how early “youve left” this globe. I am always going to love you with my whole heart.

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Flash of light and loud bang in Michigan was meteor, experts say

Hundreds of people in Michigan and surrounding states said they find fireball light up the sky on Tuesday night

Congress grills social media giants on efforts to curtail terror content

Congress demanded answers from tech giants including Facebook and Twitter on Wednesday about whether they’re doing enough to keep terror networks off social media, suggesting that their reports about frustrating such efforts indicate they’re falling short.

Even Twitter executive Carlos Monje’s report that the so-called microblogging service — with an estimated 330 million active users — has suspended more than 1.1 million terrorist-related accounts since mid-2 015 wasn’t enough for Sen. Brian Schatz, D-Hawaii.

“Based on your results, you are not where you need to be, ” said Schatz. He expressed anxiety of election-year chaos like what American enemies created in 2016.

In response, Monje said at the Senate commerce committee hearing that Twitter gets better “every day” at detecting terror-related and other dangerous messages. But he also acknowledged that company officials routinely “ask themselves the same question” about how they can improve.

The executives from Facebook, YouTube and Twitter also conceded at the hearing that they have yet to agree on a “shared standard” of what constitutes extremist or terrorist content. That came in response to questioning about the issues by the committee chairman, Sen. John Thune, R-S.D.

“That’s right, Mr. Chairman, ” replied Facebook executive Monica Bickert.

However, she also was contended that the popular social media network does not allow anybody involved with the revolutionary Islamic group Boko Haram, for example, to have a Facebook page “even if you are simply talking about the lovely weather.”

She also said Facebook does not permit “any praise for such groups or their actions.”

Thune raised concerns about a YouTube video that helped the so-called “Manchester bomber” generate his explosive device. He cited a recent report that received the video has been put up and taken down 11 hours on YouTube, yet resurfaced on the site again this month.

“How is that possible? ” Thune asked. The homemade bomb was detonated at the Manchester Arena, in the United Kingdom, in May 2017, killing some two dozen people and injuring more than 500 others. Revolutionary Islamists have claimed responsibility for the attack.

YouTube executive Juniper Downs said the company was rapidly catching “re-uploads” of the video, then removing them.

She also said the company was sharing such info as part of the coalition formed with Facebook, Twitter and Microsoft to “better identify and remove” offensive content.

Still, Monje, a Twitter public policy director, acknowledged that keeping up with artificial intelligence and other forces-out that put out dangerous content had elements of a “cat and mouse game.”

He also said that his company, like Facebook, was trying to identify and apprise users who might have been subject to Russian internet trolls spreading misinformation during the 2016 election cycle.

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LAPD spent millions on ‘green’ electric BMWs used for joyrides to nail salons, day lunches: report

Two years after the LAPD touted a multimillion-dollar buy of a fleet of eco-friendly electric BMWS, the vehicles are was for personal trip-ups to grab lunch and– in one instance– a visit a nail salon, according to a local report.

BMW announced in 2016 that it had beaten Tesla and won a contract to supply the department with 100 all-electric plug-in vehicles to be used exclusively for community outreach and police business.

But a CBS investigative squad, which reviewed mileage logs and followed the BMWs when they left LAPD garages, found that officers appeared to have a loose interpretation of those guidelines.

One BMW went straight-out to a Yoshinoya drive-thru and returned to a police station, CBS reported. Another headed for Loyola Marymount University and picked up someone for a lunch date, and a third used in order to a fingernail salon for an hour-long manicure.

CBS reported that its investigative team followed Annemarie Sauer, commanding officer of LAPD fiscal operations, as she used a department-issued electric BMW to drive to a fingernail salon. Sauer, who reportedly spent more than an hour inside the salon and had been insured getting her nails done, said she had “no comment” when she was confronted by a CBS crew.

When CBS proved LAPD Deputy Chief Jorge Villegas video of the policeman employing a department-owned BMW to head to the fingernail salon, he said it “doesn’t appear to be” appropriate and promised to look into the matter.

Villegas said that overall, the electric car program has been successful, CBS reported.

Mileage logs obtained by CBS News revealed that many of the cars were underused, posting only a few thousand miles in a fourteen-month period. One of the cars had only 400 miles in that approximate timeframe, according to CBS.

Police sources told the network that policemen were reluctant to use the cars because they can only go about 80 -1 00 miles on a charge.

The total cost of the three-year lease for the vehicles: approximately $1.4 million, plus another $1.5 million for the infrastructure to support the department’s growing stable of electric vehicles, according to the Los Angeles Times.

“We should be thinking green in everything we do, ” Los Angeles Mayor Eric Garcetti said in 2016, adding that the move to electric vehicles would “also save money and resources.”

Gregg Re is an editor for Fox News. Follow him on Twitter @gregg_re.

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Is Being Just Friends Really Better Than Nothing At All?

Toa Heftiba

This is what I heard when I said that I was thinking of cutting ties with one of my best guy friends. To keep a long narrative short, I fell for him. Deeply. Hard. Completely. And he did not feeling the same way.

Despite the unrequited love, I still hung on to what we had:. We remained extremely close. He looked out for me and supported me, and I did the same for him. I built him laugh, he let me weep when I needed, and we spent lots of time together.

But despite how close we were, despite how supported and safe I felt, I still couldn’t shake how much I wanted to be with him. was always dancing in the back of my intellect. I mean, couldn’t he change his mind?

The short answer is no. Because despite how close we were, he did not love me, at least not in the way I required .

And it fucking sucked.

When reality demanded I come back to earth, it hurt like hell. He wasn’t changing his intellect, he felt how he felt, and that was that. Despite what heartbreak may tell you, you really can’t convince someone to love you. You can’t hope your way into their heart.

Soon thereafter, being “friends” became this toxic, messy thing that didn’t really look anything like friendship at all. Assuring him hurt. Sitting next to him hurt. Hearing about his day hurt. Listening to him laugh hurt.

It all simply fucking hurt and I knew friendship wasn’t supposed to feel this style, which constructed me wonder 😛 TAGEND

Is being friends actually better than being nothing at all ?

To many people, it would be. It would be considered selfish to throw away a relationship because you developed feelings. It would be dramatic. It would be giving up.

But why does that have to be the case? Because if what you want isn’t friendship, then what are you really losing ?

After all, you want a relationship. You want to fall asleep to the sound of their heartbeats and wake up in their bed as the sunlight greets you both. You want the dinner dates and for them to be your first phone call when something good or bad happens. You want to know their coffee order by heart and know their darkest parts and still love them anyway.

What you want isn’t relationship.

By walking away, you are not being selfish. You are simply respecting yourself enough to know that what the two of you have is hurt you and is not giving you what you need. And if they’re really your friend, they’ll understand that.

But this is not to say that it always has to be a permanent deviation. Perhaps things can change. Maybe you can find friendship somewhere in that person one day after hour has passed and your heart has mended. It’s okay to hope for that, too.

But in the end, if that’s not something you can do, that’s okay. It’s not that you’re weak or selfish.

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