Im officially in my 30 s. My heart and intellect havent been maintaining up to be honest. Sometimes, I wish I could just remain that little girl I once was. Life was much easier those days.
As you get older, you learn how to survive and become independent. I remember when I was a little girl, I was so excited to grow up and become an adult. An adult appeared so cool, and I couldnt wait to become one of them. But now that Im an adult( am I ?) its not quite what I thought it would turn out to be . Of course, there are so many things that I enjoy as an adult, but sometimes it only sucks. First of all, most of the people work to pay their rent and bills. If youre lucky, you might end up doing a job you love but lets be honest here, life isnt easier than i thought. You would have to work really hard to get what you want, and that sucks up all your energy.
I have been working for 7 years in Tokyo, and I was an independent female. I was proud of myself and I assume I was doing pretty good. But as the years passed by, I start feeling that something was missing in my life. Then I realized that I was going to hit my 30 s soon. I had a undertaking as a translator and it was a steady undertaking which I couldnt complaints about. But I knew I didnt want to end up in the company I was working at that time.
Ive always wanted to go overseas and see if I could fill what is missing in my life. Tokyo is an amazing place, but from my point of view, I would say its not a place to live long-term. Its pretty depressing riding the develop every day during the course of its rush hours. Everybody looks like a zombie and the train is packed as hell. I couldnt imagine getting married( yes, I want to get married the working day) and having children in this environment. I decided to quit my job with other various circumstances overlapping. I felt that it was time to make a difference in my life before its too late, and I believe the fact that I was about to turn 30 also pushed my back. Now Im back at my hometown and figuring out what my next step is likely to be. Im definitely determined that I want to step out of Japan and explore another world. Sometimes I think why didnt I make a move earlier, but its never too late to start right?
There are days when I feel overwhelmed of the idea that Im 30 now, but thats not going to stop me from doing what I want in life. I dont know when I will feel like a complete adult, but I came to a realization that maybe I never will be.
The most important thing is to be satisfied with yourself and your life.
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