It was the summer of 2017 when a small community in Utah watched in horror as 11 people took their own lives in 11 days.
One after the other, the state had been struck with a wave of LGBTQ suicides, shaking the fag and transgender community to its core .
“These are the kids who feel like God doesn’t love them, their parents won’t understand, their community won’t understand who they are, ” local Utah resident Stephanie Larsen explains.
This sense of isolation has only fueled youth suicides in the state.
“Suicide is now the leading cause of death for young people in Utah, and the suicide rate has tripled since 2007. ”
Seeing that LGBTQ youth in her own city desperately needed a safe place to run, Larsen founded Encircle, a resource center in Provo, Utah.
“The reason for Encircle is to keep kids alive, ” Larsen says .
Having watched so many LGBTQ youth take their own lives, Larsen knew something had to give. “[ I wanted] to give these kids a safe space to be, so they can grow up and have time to think about ‘Who am I? Who do I wanna be? ‘”
Encircle offers support groups, counseling, speaker series, and most importantly, a sense of affirmation and togetherness to LGBTQ folks in Provo and beyond.
“We can help them have a safe place to be[ and] move the community to better understand these children and their families, ” Larsen says.
And she believes that this understanding is possible after having lived it herself . It wasn’t that long ago that she herself harbored racism of her own. “But life changed, and experiences changed me, ” she explains.
And as an “all-American Mormon, ” if change was possible for her, she believes that change can happen in Provo, a city known for being one of the most conservative in the country.
“[ We] meeting with members where they are and help us all progress and become better, ” Larsen says.
Having merely been open six months, the center has already changed lives.
Donna Showalter, whose son Michael is a regular at Encircle, says the center has made a real change in their lives.
“When I was operating for student body chairperson, an account was made about me being lesbian, ” he says. “[ They said ,] ‘Whatever you do, don’t vote for Michael Gaywalter. We don’t want our school being run by a f* ggot.'”
This experience scared Donna, who dreaded for his life as the harassment escalated.
“There was a time when we were really worried about Michael’s safety, ” his mother says. “There was always the gues in my intellect that he might not come back.”
“I would text him, ‘Where are you? ‘ And he would say, ‘I’m at Encircle, ‘ and I would instantaneously stop worrying, ” she says.
“That pit in my stomach would go away instantaneously. I knew that he was safe.”
“I truly feel like Encircle literally saved their own lives, ” she says .
And this, of course, is what Encircle is all about — creating a space where youth are safe to be their whole selves.
When Larsen generated the center, she envisioned a place where LGBTQ youth could show up as they are without having to leave their community and their families.
“We will never tell any of the youth who they should be, ” Larsen explains. “Our approach is, you need to be who you need to be … and they need to look inside of themselves and say, ‘This is where I will find happiness. And this is where I will be whole and complete.'”
For the 11 LGBTQ people who lost their lives last summer, that’s a wholeness they were never able to find. But in a small house in Provo, Utah — a safe haven in a city that so often is like a small town — each and every day, there’s a reason for hope.
For the youth of Encircle and the families and friends who love them , nothing is ever easy. But together, they can at the least know it’s not a journey they’ll be taking alone.
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