I know it’s been a while since that first date. Since that first night I had terrible butterflies running down the stairs of my apartment building ready to let you in. I know it’s been years since the first time I met you, when you shook my hand and we looked into each other’s eyes a little longer than we commonly do upon first meeting person. It’s been some time since that day when I dipped my feet into the pool at the party where I gratified you, and you told me to come closer, to sit next to you and tell you my story.
It’s been a while since the first time we said,” I love you .” When “were in” both hopelessly falling, and simply wishing, praying, that the other was falling too. It feels so long ago when we both knew that this was something more than infatuation, more than lust, that what we had, and what we had with, was in fact love. It is like the beginning was forever ago, but I love you the same way I did back then as I do today, and I’ll continue to do so.
I’ll always love you like it’s the beginning .
Because in the beginning I looked at you like you were the most amazing part of my life, the most exciting, fun, the happiest component, and you looked at me the same exact way. In the beginning when I woke up next to you I felt so lucky, luck that I had person like you who bided for more than only the night, someone who I couldn’t wait to start my day with. I looked at you like you were one of the best things that’s ever happened to me. And I still do.
I still feel excitement when I look at you. I still feel lucky to wake up next to you. And I still love you like you’re one of the best things that’s ever happened to me. The only difference is the time that has passed and everything I’ve learned about you within those days, months, and years.
The only difference is that in the beginning I only knew a small part of who you are. I knew you were smart, I knew what you examined in school, I knew your favorite colouring, and your favorite food, but I didn’t know the route your eyes crinkle when you laugh at something that genuinely cracks you up. I didn’t know the looking you get when you worry about the ones you love. I didn’t know the route tears flowed from your eyes, and I didn’t know the way you let love change you.
I didn’t know the route you open up and how you let people in. I didn’t know the route you cared for them when you are let them get so close, after you give them the one thing that matters most, your trust. I didn’t know the way you’d let me walk into your life and how you’d let me love the people you love, how you’d show me that to ensure your heart only avoids you from sharing it. I didn’t know the way you’d help me realize that love doesn’t have to be so scary .
I didn’t know any of this in the beginning. And while the beginning was filled with lust and infatuation, and intimacy that felt like fire, it wasn’t full of anything that I know about you now. I’ll always love you like it’s the beginning. I’ll always look at you like you’re astonishing, and I’ll always feel lucky waking up next to you, but our love today is so much more than it was back then. Our love today is stronger.
Make sure to visit: CapGeneration.com