For parents of disabled kids, one of life’s biggest struggles comes from outside the home.

Everyone knows being a mother is hard. But parenting a disabled child carries challenges you don’t expect.

Many of us in this world are juggling multiple tasks at a time. On any given day, we are nurses, therapists, advocates, teachers, personal care assistants, and administrative assistants managing their own endless paperwork.

When I had my son, I expected to face these day-to-day difficulties of parenting a disabled child. But the challenge I wasn’t expecting came from outside the home.

For years, I have always wondered why friends seem to drop-off like flies from my life. What am I doing incorrect? Why do I struggle making and maintaining friends ?

For some parents of disabled children, friendships can feel almost impossible to maintain.

As our children grow and we move deeper into the trenches of childhood, we sometimes find that our lives are very isolated from the world around us. We turn on our laptops, tablets, or telephones and assure pictures of other mothers at social events, hurling elaborated parties or cheering on their kids at athletics. These moments can induce our belly sink, our hearts hurt, and remind us just how isolated our lives had now become.

We are maxed out with the daily care of our children, and every aspect of our lives is wrapped up in the complications and extra fighting needed to raise our children successfully.

Most of us are trying to balance the needs of our children, and their care is so extensive we are moving from one crisis to the next on a daily basis. My son demands 100% of my attention, and due to the complexity of his care, all of my energy is focused on his treatments, appointments, researching, and managing my emotions about the toll his care takes on my psyche.

The fact is, I’m not a very good friend.

I don’t have a lot of free time. My schedule is always changing, and it is impossible for me to keep plans. My son’s care wears me out physically and emotionally. Due to the high-stress life I result, I am short of patience, and I can get easily riled by people. I say things I don’t mean out of frustration, and I take well-meaning commentaries too personally.

On the rare opportunity I can stick to my schemes, the believed to be socializing leaves me with a deep sense of nervousnes. I know that I will have to talk about my life, and talking about my life constructs me feel exhausted. When I have a chance to get away from my house, the last thing I want to do is talk about what is going on in my life.

Frequently the events I attend are in larger groups, and the conversation is small talk related to raising children. Parents want to talk about their children, and for many, it’s a way to bond. They commiserate about the woes of parenting. Yet, I always feel like an foreigner because I don’t relate to their stories, and I have little of my own to contribute. I’m often lost in my thinks, wholly preoccupied with what I need to do for my son.

I might be near people, but I’m a million miles away.

I listen to amazing tales about vacations, jaunts, and all the milestones that their children have accomplished. When I hear others having wonderful lives full of happy memories, I find that I sink further away from the conversation. I nod my head and smile, but inside I’m screaming because our lives are so different and it feels so unfair. My son hasn’t satisfied those milestones, we never go on vacation, and our lives are expended moving from one office to another for appointments.

If I do speak, I know that I will have to share our journey. Talking to anyone about our life has a way of constructing me feel incredibly anxious. After the stress of a day caring for him, I don’t want to recap what is going on , nor do I want to answer questions. I also don’t want anyone impression sorry for us . More often than not, I find myself not saying much at all.

Eventually, the night aims. I feel depleted, sad, and I am reminded how out of place I feel in the world. I push everyone away from me because it is so hard to be around anyone. I don’t like being reminded our life is different, and I can’t handle how that realization constructs “i m feeling”. Selfishly I can’t concentrate my energy on anyone other than my child, and helping friends navigate their problems is impossible for me. I realize I merely cannot be the friend I need to be.

Texts go unreturned, I stop answering messages and emails on my social media, and I discontinue accepting invites or attending events. The truth is I push everyone away because I’m emotionally drained by my feelings. I know our life is different, I hate that my child is dealing with so much adversity, and I can’t be attributed to anyone around me.

In the end, friendships dissolve because I can’t contribute, maintain plans, or devote anything to anyone other than my son.

I’ve learned over the years that I’m not alone in my feelings.

Other parents of disabled children have shared these same feelings with me. The lives of parents of disabled children are not typical, and we are keenly aware of our differences.

Our lives are filled with appointments, therapy, and endless paperwork that they are able to take us away from the world as we care for our children. We are not readily accessible to our friends for long periods of hour. Many of us feel unbelievably guilty for not being better friends, but most of us accept that we are incapable of nurturing meaningful relationships outside of our immediate family.

We wish more than anything that people understood that even though we can’t always be there for people — we desperately need them in our lives. Even though we can’t go to events, we wish people would recollect to invite us. We wish we didn’t feel so out of place, and hope that one day we will find someone who gets our life.

More importantly, we wish we were capable of being better friends, and that we could relate to other parents. Our lives as parents of disabled children attain having friendship a tough challenge, and for many of us giving up is more natural than fighting.

We fight for everything for most children, so when it comes to the fight to maintain relationships, we need a bit more help from our friends.

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