This Is A Confession For The One I Couldnt Fix

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I used to believe in second opportunities and it is possible to build people change to be the best version of themselves. I believed that everyone deserves to be better, to love themselves even more, and to be fixed. Maybe that’s why I’ve always been attracted to those who need to be fixed, including you.

It took me a while to accept the fact that choice you to be loved wasn’t a mistake. Even until now, I’m still convincing myself that failing to fix you wasn’t my mistake at all and it wasn’t your mistake either.

Now I know that, the majority of cases, some people will stay the route they are and I shouldn’t have had the intention to fix you in the first place .

Instead of being heartbroken because of you, I’m more disappointed with myself. I’m mad at myself for failing to induce you feel better about yourself. I’m mad because I couldn’t attain you find a way as you’d still say that you’re lost.

I’m disappointed given the fact that my best effort that I devoted towards you still induce no difference as you stay the way you are, full of wounds and lost.

I thought that our relations was going to work as I believed that I could fix you and all of your meanders, but I was wrong. It was getting harder for me to accept who you really are and I gave up on you. Maybe after all this time, I wasn’t loving you at all; I merely loved the idea of fixing you.

Now, I realize that when you genuinely love someone, you will never want to fix them. Because love is not about fixing someone, it’s fixing ourselves .

True love won’t induce us want to change the other person, it will make us want to fix ourselves instead. Love should construct us realise our own wounds as we will try to fix ourselves and be more appropriate day by day, simply because we want to build the other person happy.

You and I didn’t love one another; I was just being obsessed with mending your wounds, while you were enjoying all of my attention without having the urge to change yourself at all.

The hardest thing is not about keep moving from you, it is forgiving myself. I’m in the process to accept the fact that it wasn’t my fault that you felt lost and your happiness was not my responsibility at all .

This time, I’m the one who will leave you behind as I know that if I remain, I will always have an expectation towards you. I will always expect that you’ll change your intellect and be the person whom I’ve always wanted you to be, and I know it is a wrong way to love a person.

You will always be my lesson learned about loving person. You’ve built me realize that I should’ve read the signs earlier that you weren’t the one, but you will never be my regret either. You constructed me learn about how the right love should feel and I shouldn’t feel responsible for other people’s wounds.

You are a blessing in disguise because now I realize that an insecure person, who needs to be fixed, will never able to give love for others as they haven’t even love themselves enough.

I hope you will find a way to fix yourself soon; this is me leaving you behind and giving up on fixing you .

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