All The Things I Want Are All Things Youre Not

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I expended countless nights forcing my brain to shut down and just letting my heart leading. Spent months scolding my heart for falling so simple on traps the brain cautioned about before. At one point I believed I’ve given up on receiving that one person and the next morning, I find myself out in the open again: guards down and vulnerable nevertheless, wiser.

And so I summed up the things I learned. Attained notes of what I want, highlighted the red flag I maintained on missing, and steadied my heart knowing person will one day walk in and not repeat the same mistakes the past has stimulated .

I want someone to genuinely call me a distinct name as a sign of endearment because he meant to call me that way and not only because calling someone’ Babe’ or’ Honey’ is a name he calls everyone he’s fond of. It would mean so much to smile as he calls me this because I know, I, alone is the only’ Babe’ and’ Honey’ in his life.

I want someone who is sure he wants me not just because having me entails get a trophy but because he knows my true worth. That I am not just a figure he can show to the public to compliment his masculine seems but instead, a woman whom he deeply cares for. A female whom he would still choose to adore even if I stop going to the gym and as a result, lose all the superficial attributes I acquired.

I want someone who is consistent in stimulating me feel that I am wanted in return . Because in the first place, that’s what stimulated me go for him. From sneaking messages in the middle of his crazy work to not hearing anything at all from him the entire day. From voluntarily updating me his daily schedules to later on stalking his Instagram narratives merely to catch a glimpse of what it is that actually maintained him from texting me the whole week. From spontaneous fun dates to heartbreaking canceled ones. I want a guy who does not run complacent once I show him that I like him in return. Someone who would consistently value the sparkle in my eyes and curve in my mouth as he makes me genuinely happy with the things that he does.

I want someone who builds me realise my potentials even if that means we have to debate on things we have contrasting sentiments about . I want to be my own despite is available on a relationship. I am not going to be his “yes woman” because I am capable of knowing and doing what I believe is right.

I want someone who won’t abuse the classic “I am/ was busy” alibi. While I understand that we are adults and we have better things to do than simply texting each other the entire day, I would appreciate you letting me know how long you intend to keep me awaiting. It somehow gives me security that much as you’d like to talk to me all the time, you are ripened enough to prioritize your work first yet, you also regret not hearing from me for some time. It is the thought that counts. Always.

I want someone who is not afraid to let me know he sees me expending the future with him. It’s not like I am in a hurry , no one is. However, it is very pleasing to know that the relationship is actually heading somewhere and that we’re not wasting any effort of getting to know each other to a deeper level because what we have at the moment is something we are mutually working to last forever.

I want all these things to have because I know for myself that it’s what will maintain me happy in the long run. I am done accepting temporary happiness .

On a sad note, all these things are the same things you are not .

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